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I wish

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 15:23:00 +0100

I wish my mum acted a bit smarter.
I wish my mum tried harder instead of wanting her hand held all the time.
I wish my dad wasn’t such a drama queen.
I wish my dad didn’t assume that everything that comes out of my mum’s mouth is out to get him.
I wish my dad would stop watching those stupid mainland Chinese shows.
I wish my parents would get actual hobbies instead of complaining about their boring lives all day.
I wish my mum didn’t care so much about prestige and impressing people. Why the fuck would I care that my relatives would be proud of me if I went to Cambridge?
I wish my dad would wake the fuck up and realise his problem between his sister and my mum.
I wish my dad would stop being so immature.
I wish my parents would start to become more real and less fake. (wow this statement sounds dumb but it’s 100% genuine)
I wish I wasn’t so arrogant.
I sometimes wish my internet personality could mesh into my RL personality a bit more.
And then I realise that I don’t wish that because I’d attract like a million creeps.
I’m not gonna wish about dumb shit like having more self-control because if I did I wouldn’t be making this post.

And with that I’m going to finish reading the ROOKIES drabble I stumbled upon, shower, and do some huge emo Fudou writing. Perfect since the topic is about his family!

Feeling drained because of family. Not sure I’m looking forward to UK either…

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 15:17:40 +0100

Feeling drained because of family.

Not sure I’m looking forward to UK either…

Point #1: SIMS SOCIAL, Y U NO DROP DROP I WANT?! Point #2: SELF, Y U STILL PLAY SIMS...

Thu, 21 Jun 2012 11:30:40 +0100

Point #1: SIMS SOCIAL, Y U NO DROP DROP I WANT?!

Point #2: SELF, Y U STILL PLAY SIMS SOCIAL?!?!?!!?!?!?

Another resolution

Tue, 08 May 2012 19:05:50 +0100

Watch my volume of speech u_u Sometimes I squeak awkwardly soft and it’s a bit embarrassing…

Also sometimes I think that I am friends with sexists and that makes me really sad. Both for myself and them. But mostly for myself…

I need to evaluate and decide what I really think of gyaruge and eroge. I’ll try to play one...

Tue, 08 May 2012 00:34:59 +0100

I need to evaluate and decide what I really think of gyaruge and eroge.

I’ll try to play one after exams.

I’ll try an otome game too…

I think I’m experiencing some major cognitive dissonance lolol

My 7th of May Resolution

Mon, 07 May 2012 22:46:22 +0100

I’m going to be nicer to people.

This means no sceptical looks, no eye rolling, no eyebrow quirks, more smiles but absolutely no faking of happiness or otherwise!!

Before I say things I’m going to screen them carefully!! This applies even to when I’m talking crap and/or bantering!!

This has been an action plan for being nice and MY LIFE!!

Go me!

I need to stop acting so judgemental!!!!

Sun, 06 May 2012 16:44:48 +0100

Because I’m really not!!

It’s probably my face. And my eyebrow quirk. Go self!!

04/05/2012 so far

Fri, 04 May 2012 12:48:00 +0100

Good parts of today:

-Halfway done with exams!! Wooo!!
-Valtaro gave me an extra large serving of spaghetti!! WOOOT!!!
-I think I passed my exam! Awesome :) (It’s the one that I don’t care what I get in)
-FREE DINNER!! My friend is amazing and wonderful.

Average parts of today:

-Somebody read and liked my HP/YGO crossover from like 2007. At least read my newer stuff… ;A; Or leave a review… (But then again, I wouldn’t review an obviously dead story lol)

Bad parts of today:

-Nope.
-OK, I guess that I found out that Olympic racewalkers walk REALLY fast… so my dream in that respect was crushed. (I would have to triple my walking speed lol) Apart from that not really…

To do today:

-Write letters to penpals.
-Study for Health Psychology and maybe a Brain and Behaviour podcast.
-Eat mozzarella cheese… <3

THANK YOU STATISTICS

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 14:27:57 +0100

THANK YOU STATISTICS

PLEASE KEEP DOING FOR MY GRADES WHAT YOU’VE BEEN DOING ALL THIS TIME

BOWS

BOWS THREE MORE TIMES

Marital conflict is always awkward.

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 04:30:34 +0100

I think I deal badly with stress. It takes a lot to make me stressed, which is probably why I...

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 16:20:16 +0100

I think I deal badly with stress.

It takes a lot to make me stressed, which is probably why I haven’t been stressed a lot. And boy do I not react well under stress.

Parenting: You're doing it so, so wrong...

Wed, 04 Apr 2012 12:15:33 +0100

Don’t give me all this bullshit about only learning your good habits from you.

Try to better yourself even as you tell me to do the same.

I wanna get out of here. Last Easter was amazing because I was basically Inazuma Elevening with...

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 18:25:07 +0100

I wanna get out of here.

Last Easter was amazing because I was basically Inazuma Elevening with Jan and eating pandan mochi and studying really easy shit.

Now my mum just complains about her problems and gets me to do everything for her. She’s got eye problems, I know, and she tells me to teach her how to do things, but I have to teach her the same things again and again. Patience, I do not have. I’m awful. I’m such a hypocrite because I really don’t like it when a couple of my friends make fun of me and are really impatient when I don’t know ‘basic’ Physics.

I dunno. Even though the food sucks in the UK at least I can do my thing without distractions. I feel so much more productive there. Nothing dragging me down. No remnants of the past that I have to revisit even if I don’t particularly want to. My mother has grand dreams but has not taken first steps in a long time. And even when she has she gives up too easily now. (it was different when she was younger, apparently) This attitude pervades the household and it’s poisoning me. I feel suffocated. I want out.

I kind of regret not working hard enough in the first term now. I wasted too much time on apps that...

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 18:15:05 +0100

I kind of regret not working hard enough in the first term now. I wasted too much time on apps that I never sent (not NaNo - that was definitely time well spent) and I definitely regret just dismissing the vision lectures. If i’d ordered the textbook (granted the new edition hadn’t come out yet but still) earlier and read it earlier I would be in a better position now. Same with the hearing and speech lectures. I can only hope that the other lectures aren’t as difficult to review as these. Basic Vision is really fun to read but it doesn’t make me any more interested in visual perception (except in ganglion cells, because they are cute). Hopefully the amazing notes I made in most of my 2nd term classes will help a lot. Exams start two weeks earlier this year and this really hurt my flow…

I looked at my notes last year and I’m actually starting to study at the same time this year as I did then. The only difference is those 2 weeks. Hey, it just means that it’ll be over 2 weeks earlier as well right?

Reminder to self: BE PROACTIVE!!! Prepare the fuck outta dat research project in the summer, kick testing outta the way by November (nanooo) and do the goddamn readings!!!

Which Disney Movies Have You Seen?

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 11:33:05 +0100

CLASSIC DISNEY

[x] 101 Dalmatians (1961)
[x] Alice in Wonderland (1951)
[x] Bambi (1942)
[x] Cinderella (1950)
[x] Dumbo (1941)
[ ] Fantasia (1940)
[x] Lady and the Tramp (1955)
[ ] Mary Poppins (1964)
[x] Peter Pan (1953)
[x] Pinocchio (1940)
[x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
[ ] Song of the South (1946)

DISNEY’S DARK AGE
[x] The Aristocats (1970)
[ ] Bedknobs & Broomsticks (1971)
[ ] The Black Cauldron (1985)
[x] The Fox and the Hound (1981)
[ ] The Great Mouse Detective (1986)
[x] The Jungle Book (1967)
[x] The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977)
[ ] Oliver and Company (1986)
[ ] Pete’s Dragon (1977)
[ ] The Rescuers (1977)
[x] Robin Hood (1973)
[ ] The Sword In The Stone (1963)

THE DISNEY RENAISSANCE
[x] Aladdin (1992)
[x] Beauty and the Beast (1991)
[ ] A Goofy Movie (1995)
[x] Hercules (1997)
[x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996)
[x] The Lion King (1994)
[x] The Little Mermaid (1989)
[x] Mulan (1998)
[x] Pocahontas (1995)
[ ] The Rescuers Down Under (1990)
[x] Tarzan (1999)

DISNEY’S MODERN AGE
[x] Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001)
[ ] Bolt (2008)
[ ] Brother Bear (2003)
[ ] Chicken Little (2005)
[ ] Dinosaur (2000)
[ ] The Emperor’s New Groove (2000)
[x] Enchanted (2007)
[ ] Fantasia 2000 (2000)
[ ] Home on the Range (2004)
[x] Lilo & Stitch (2002)
[ ] Meet the Robinsons (2007)
[ ] The Princess and the Frog (2009)
[ ] Treasure Planet (2002)
[ ] Tangled (2010)

DISNEY SEQUELS
[ ] 101 Dalmatians 2: Patch’s London Adventure (2003)
[ ] Aladdin and the King of Thieves (1996)
[ ] An Extremely Goofy Movie (2000)
[ ] Atlantis - Milo’s Return (2003)
[ ] Bambi II (2006)
[ ] Beauty and the Beast - Belle’s Magical World (1998)
[ ] Beauty and the Beast - The Enchanted Christmas (1997)
[ ] Cinderella II - Dreams Come True (2002)
[ ] Cinderella III - A Twist in Time (2007)
[ ] Kronk’s New Groove (2005)
[ ] Lady & the Tramp II - Scamp’s Adventure (2001)
[ ] Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch Has a Glitch (2005)
[ ] Mulan 2 (2004)
[ ] Pocahontas II - Journey to a New World (1998)
[ ] Return to Never Land (2002)
[ ] Tarzan & Jane (2002)
[ ] Tarzan II (2005)
[ ] The Hunchback of Notre Dame II (2002)
[ ] The Jungle Book 2 (2003)
[ ] The Lion King 1 1/2 (2004)
[x] The Lion King II: Simba’s Pride (1998)
[ ] The Little Mermaid - Ariel’s Beginning (2008)
[x] The Little Mermaid II: Return to the Sea (2000)
[ ] The Return of Jafar

PIXAR
[x] A Bug’s Life (1998)
[ ] Cars (2006)
[x] Finding Nemo (2003)
[x] The Incredibles (2004)
[x] Monsters Inc. (2001)
[x] Ratatouille (2007)
[x] Toy Story (1995)
[x] Toy Story 2 (1999)
[x] Toy Story 3 (2010)
[x] Wall-E (2008)
[ ] Up (2009)

How do you assert yourself properly when all your life you've been told not to make things difficult

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 15:26:05 +0000

How do you react to jokes about women when your dad once told you that men rule the world and that’s the truth and that’s how the world is.

How do you hold ambitions when all your friends that being too get-going is uncool and you love them dearly but think they could be so much more.

How should you react to your friend saying “fag” and “gay” in a derogatory manner when a lot of your other close friends are gay.

How do you make constant what you think should be done in these cases and what you actually do.

(not all of these are relevant to my own life, but food for thought)

Today I checked some data for the Institute of Psychiatry in London, more specifically the IES...

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 00:38:22 +0000

Today I checked some data for the Institute of Psychiatry in London, more specifically the IES (measuring mental trauma) and a measure of the relationship between one parent and their partner that I forgot the name of. It was illuminating… In the IES, there’s a space to state what the “worst thing that ever happened to you” is, and some of the stuff is just sad. Stuff like “my ex-boyfriend raped me” (15 year old) and “my mother slit her wrist and bled on my face”. And then you get the people who are just taking the piss (one guy who was obviously doing it was quite funny actually… quite skilled in conveying that across a rather inflexible questionnaire response measure…) and responses like “i was caught in a london hotel butt naked” and “i sold my nike”.

For reference!

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 01:20:50 +0000

http://www.csun.edu/~hcpsy002/Clinical%20Versus%20Counseling%20Psychology.pdf

“Clinical psychologists tend to work with more seriously disturbed populations and are more likely trained in projective assessment, whereas counseling psychology graduates work with healthier, less pathological populations and conduct more career and vocational assessment (Brems & Johnson, 1997; Fitzgerald & Osipow, 1986; Watkins, Lopez, Campbell, & Himmell, 1986).”

The role of social norms on expectations of the self

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 01:19:56 +0000

It wasn’t until many of my friends kept saying that I analyse what people say psychoanalytically (usually linking it with a reference to the fact that I study Psychology ha ha funny) that I realised or thought of myself as doing so.

Even now, I don’t know if it’s the former or the latter.

Paper Tigers

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 21:05:25 +0000

Paper Tigers:

I personally had a way more liberal upbringing than what this article suggests most of the Asians featured had. (I have a theory that foreign-born Asians actually have the potential to be more hardcore Asian than Asians raised in Asia, but I’ll keep that for another time.) (Another digression is that this is strange because my parents are the most conservative people I can think of bar Rick Santorum. It’s probably because they were too cheapo to get me to go to Kumon lessons and have tuition. They also encouraged me to read a lot and I wonder why I stopped in middle and high school…)

That being said, this article resonated with me. I definitely have a problem with asserting myself and claiming credit. Working tirelessly worked on GaiaOnline, but not so much in the real world. People are slamming down on the writer of this article, but I can see where he’s coming from. I don’t want to be the stereotypical (and inaccurate - Chinese people are fucking lazy dude, it’s all about the most results with the least work) meek submissive “bitter labour” Chinese person whose worth is determined by salary and career progression. At the same time, the Western culture of self-promotion, arrogance (it seems like that to me - I’m a hypocrite because I joke-brag a lot, but hey) and shallow friendliness just seems fake and bullshit.

I think this perception described above is quite common amongst international school-educated people in Asia, actually.